Life Is Beautiful - 07

The vacations went on well, met all my friends and other mates. The worst feel is when you feel that you are alone with all your friends surrounding you just because you miss someone so dearly. Life seemed to be so empty after I distanced from her. I know that she was happy there but could never even enjoy her happiness anymore. I acted like a selfish stupid wanting for the everlasting peace.

The new college, new class room, new staffs and everything new but I knew very well what their purpose is. I am not excited at all. It was just a repetition for me. I was not ready to be social here and there were too many gangs of two year old friendship and they don’t want to include me either. The moment I stopped talking freely with everyone, I started enjoying the silence within me.

I don’t have any confusion within me to have a debate. Brain was intended just for studies and Heart was intended just to pump blood through the arteries and veins. It was a transformation – indeed a beautiful transformation. I enjoyed being up there with many unknowns not because I enjoy silence but it’s because I started a new practice of observing people. It was really fun watching people always. In fact, for a guy who have literally become mad of seeing the same person for years it was fun. But I have to admit that she showed many variations and was always lovable. I don’t want to dump memories anymore so that Aaradhana will never reach the bottom most part of my Heart. Still I could say – she is full!

The internals – usual practice of assessment and one of the most hated things in any college. I have never let my studies down for any cause as I do this just for my dad and I don’t want him to get disappointed. If I were an outspoken guy, people would have called me “Head – Weight” but I was silent this time so I could earn a new name “Moody - Studious”. I hate that word studious right from the beginning of my education I guess.

A month passed by, one could never separate me from my silence and I was cautious enough to fulfil what I am expected to. This was the period of solace one could expect to happen after a little settled in life – I achieved it before! I was silent within, before it all started again.

I don’t take breaks usually, so would sat in my empty desk and watch some people walking in and out. The bell rang after the interval and students were late as always. If it had happened in my old college, they would have asked to stand outside for the whole hour. But the staff forgave and allowed them in every time they came late. This time too he allowed them but with a condition – everyone was to share an unforgettable moment that happened to them. The main intention was just to make everyone speak though. Everyone in the group had their own reasons to be late. Off the 5 who were late, 4 were guys and the one was Priya.

 

Life is Beautiful