Yet
another late night out with Sanjay. It was always fun walking along the streets
with him. We never ran out of topics. Be it cricket, love, relationships or the
porn we watched earlier and what not. It was always fun for both of us to make
fun of each other and most times make fun of the guys around us. We would
literally have anything people sell on roads just to gain stamina for the
walking process. I usually lose track of time when I was with him alone. It was
5 hours today and it has been much longer earlier!
I
never carry my mobile phone so no one calls me back home. But today I had my
phone as I waited for something to happen with Aarushya. Every moment I missed
out being her love counted much for me than the distance between us.
Sanjay
asked me casually, “Do you really love Aarushya?”
“Even
I don’t know. But I feel her distance, I think am missing those time with her”
“Do
you think that is love?” he questioned back. I was silent; I don’t have
anything to reply for that question. He started talking again after a little
pause.
“You
just miss a friend there and no one else. I have hardly seen you people fight.
That would make a huge difference after you think of long term. Now you may be
happy with your commons but if you need to get along well with each other, you
need to know your differences too. That is why more people fall apart after
being committed. Two people can make very good friends but making a good
‘long-lasting’ relationship is not that easy.” He completed and there was a
still silence within and around indicating the late night hours.
After
a little while, I said “I think I love her”
Sanjay
smiled at me and said, “How are you so sure now? You were not that confident a
few minutes ago…”
“I
don’t know. But when you spoke about relationships and being friends I never
had anything in my mind other than her. I yearn to live with her” I said with a
clear voice.
“You
need a little sleep now. Let’s go home” he said with a little smile and we
walked back.
He
was lying there beside me but never uttered a word. For some time, I was
thinking of the question ‘Do I love her?’ but later, I started dreaming of her
– our times together, long time chats, still longer phone calls. A little
later, the dream moved into the future with us. We were getting married, we
fight and we laugh together, we walked a lot in those streets. Later we were
walking with our kids. And little later, I fell asleep.
In
the morning I woke up smiling to myself “I will propose her today!”
As Usual…
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