Six Months Later,
A morning,
Me: “I love you…”
Aarushya: “If you really love me, don’t just say it.
Show it too…”
Me: “I guess you really read all forward mails and
messages that get delivered to your inbox!”
Aarushya: “Don’t you read mine then?”
Me: “Of course, Will read only those are from special
people like you…J”
Aarushya: “’Like me’ in the sense? You‘ve got more
specials, right?”
Me: “Wrong”
Aarushya: “I need an answer…”
Me: “That was an answer, right?”
Aarushya: “Wrong!”
We have had many little fights, some really big ones
like the one above (:-P) but I have never forgotten to wish her ‘Good Night’
everyday. The last thing I would ever do on a day is to make her a call and
wish her good night and the first thing every morning I would do is Disconnect
the call!
The distance between me and Sanjay started increasing
day by day. I was pretty sure am missing him but I have no chance to hold him
back to me. Whenever I moved a step further in love, I moved a step farther from
him. I started adjusting, caring, and loving which I have never done before
loving Aarushya. I wanted to show the same love and care to Sanjay, but I could
hardly spend time with him. He was there with me when I needed a friend the
most. I missed those walks, the chats we had, the love we shared and the
discussions we made. May be am missing my own self more.
February 2012,
And once, when I went to meet Aarushya I was talking
about Sanjay the most. I was feeling a bit odd and to make me feel comfortable,
she was constantly changing topic. Finally we decided upon our lunch and
started. I continued talking about Sanjay to her even in the ride. Aarushya
lost her patience in hearing the same verse over and over and shouted, “Its ok.
Am there, right? Leave him. He will be back if he wants to!”
Sanjay came from nowhere and I could still visualize
his violent face at that moment. Aarushya too would have felt terrified. He
shouted “You distanced from me for her? She wants to leave me! You heard that?”
I couldn’t speak a word at that moment. I just wanted him to hug him tight and
shout, “I need you the most!”
“But, what happened next was the accident and that is
why we are here… and I have spoiled Aarushya‘s happiness… am sorry I have
spoiled your happy moment too” I completed.
“It’s ok. Relax. Everything happens for some reason.
We will trust in God. Soon, we all will be fine. Relax” Renu said. There was a
still silence again. It was 5:30 in the morning and I needed a walk badly.
Renu started again, “Hey… Did you say your name?”
“Ha… Ha… I said about my life and left my name! I am
Sanjay” I said with a little pause and started again, “A cup of coffee?” I
offered.
She turned pale and I walked away.
It’s not over yet…
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