It's 5 Years!

A kid is not so happy being a kid. Every kid wants to grow old and reach a particular age and years later every kid realizes it’s much better to be a kid again. You will never know how much good something is when you are too close to it. A time travel in the past could sometimes bring out the best part of life, but sometimes it brings out Life itself.

College: Everyone enters this part of life with what they have secured in their higher secondary – yes even me, I had a secure friendship which got me in here.

Who I met first? I have an answer though many may not be exact as I am. It all started with hundreds of new faces, smell of fresh books, a watery ground and a compact classroom. As the days passed, the generalized category new faces were classified as Crush, Love and Friends, Corridors and canteen were grouped as hangout spots, nicknames became primary, corridor sights (Juniors/Staffs/ anyone in earth), Birthday cakes and treats, Chocolates, weekend movies, IPL trips, conference calls, Orkut scraps, Gtalk Chats, Long mobile texts, frequent forward mails, group chats, group mails, facebook comments…

Passing food during class hours, talking, laughing and running around with lunch boxes during the lunch hour, ‘saaarrr’ in chorus when class is bored, Clapping hands for ‘Saturday is holiday’ circular, Visiting library only for getting ‘no-due’ form sign, When staff says ‘Don’t talk’ we would say ‘discussing ma’am’, giggling automatically when staff says ‘Get out’, asking more questions and doubts to delay the class tests, debates that ended up in fights, the sleepy guest lectures, funny seminars, Project reviews presentations, playing Hollywood, Association hours, Counter Strike in computer labs and finally lengthy advices from staffs.

There were some words that bring out sheer enthusiasm and sudden rise in spirit: Blue lotus, other college symposiums, Czenia, Culturals, Sports and Annual Days. Sometimes we longed for an Industrial Visit (tour), though we are not blessed with it – we satisfied ourselves with Symposia trips!

Most of them have become obsolete now but I could get a picture of every word with everyone I lived with. I miss them all but you know what I miss the most? Staff saying ‘Attendance please’; you know why? That is the only time you could casually see someone who you wish to and check for the same dress color!

Same as most, I wanted to grow up – get out – earn and enjoy. Every part of life defines you something – this part defined Friends to me. I am proud – I have lived those best days of my life. It was not the same five years back and I am not same as what I am now.

Life is a strange journey from desperateness to awesomeness. It was so simple, simply awesome.

Need Money?

Yes. I do. Everyone needs it, but the real question would be how much an individual actually require. 100? 1000? 10000? I know, tough question. It depends.

Holding an iPhone or something equal to that standard rather a call/text only phones will certainly reduce the size of the globe. Everyone loves to wear branded shoes, robes and wrist watches. It’s practically impossible for us to expect everything as a gift from our uncle or aunt living abroad as they visit only once in a year or six months.

When on a trip, No one says ‘No’ to a cozy stay at a resort or a perfect supper at a star hotel. Wondering how this suits for Ratan Tata? Everyone has their own reasons – to maintain their caliber or to experience at least once in their lifetime. But whoever, money is inevitable.

In a society that is so complex and crowded, you can't be there ruining yourself with quotes like ‘I have values and so I don’t need money’ for every human is respected with what money they have. May be after you get established you can act being simple (Use Nokia 1100 phones, Plain kurta, etc.,) and give pose for the cover stories in top magazines standing behind huts.

It’s always better to be in a car / bike than standing with a crowd in a public transport and much better to take the airways frequently rather trying hard to book tickets in IRCTC. I am not here for asking you to look at who walk when you have a bike or to look at someone in hut when you have a concrete roof on a rainy day. Luxury is not a crime when you are comfortable with it.

With all those comforts, money could be the ultimatum in one’s life.

Everyone has that one person for who you would compromise anything just for their happiness, even your presence and that is the one you always have in your prayers!

What’s in your mind?

Need Money?

How Good Are You?

How good are you? You have an answer?

Everyone has a personal life. Be it your friend (best friend, good friend, more than a friend or whatever!), love or any relation you consider closest, they do have a personal life. Even if you are not good in understanding them, better accept them.

Usually there is a wrong thought that Girls feel insecure in relationships. Might be true, but every Guy is more insecure than her girl is. You talk hours over phone, you text the remaining time, you know her really well and still when she talks with someone else you feel bad. You ask stupid questions, suspect and sometimes you call all your insecurities under one roof – Possessiveness.

Everyone is possessive – be it a guy or a girl. Possessiveness is such a poised feel. When someone is possessive over you, you feel happy. And when you are possessive over someone you feel bad. But, you know? Without possessiveness you can have no successful relationships.

Every girl is grown up with the same infra you have got – a co-ed school, some good neighbors, some good childhood friends who are boys, best friends at college and colleagues at corporate. When you can smile at your colleague with no intentions, why can't she do the same? You don’t need to praise womanhood to attract her and more than that no girl expects you to praise her rather respect.

At extreme times, you think ‘Is she the only girl in the universe, why to feel?’ and decide let her go. But in the end, it will be only you feeling more because you have never thought of the same with any other girl. But beware; you are not the only guy in the universe either!

More than all these, in relationships guys have a slight edge over girls somewhere. You know where? A girl never loses respect over you, she may never talk bad about you to any one and she may sometimes not talk to you anymore but what she had for you remains the same. Forever – it’s a word found only in guy’s dictionary and she may not use it. Because, once you are friend to her – you are her friend forever.

If you are proud to say ‘I am possessive over her’, be bold enough to accept ‘you are not you without her’. If you feel you have rights over her – Leave out your ego, reach her and just smile – you will be friends again. Every girl is a mother at heart.

How good are you?

Letters With Love - 09

I usually write down whenever something special happens when we meet so I won’t be blaming my memory in future. I even write down even when nothing special happens but just meet, you know why? Maybe even that could be a distant dream after days!

Whenever we depart after we meet, I get a strange feel as this could be the last time I meet you and so I always wanted to stay a few minutes longer. But you believed we will meet again calling it faith, but I bet there is always a ‘last’ for everything!

You may suggest me to give a call whenever I miss you, I may promise and say ‘Sure I would’ but I fear your phone will be ringing all day together. So I would ask you to do the same and my mobile will stay silent all years together!

I searched for my mobile all around once when I missed you and wanted to call you badly holding the mobile in my hand. Recently am misplacing it many times a day but I involuntarily search my hands first! 

Gone are those days where you stare at your mobile screen and expect me to call / text and I would do it without a delay just with your thought. Even now I always have a choice to call / text but it would remain as an un-attempted choice ever after!

I may not ask you ‘a cup of coffee?’ again and in some days you even could forget the phrase. But, I would remember it every evening hoping to forget it! 

Maybe all that I could manage and move on, but I could never find a way to stop my urge to call you and act indifferent when something reminds me you!

Whenever someone asks me that involves you, I usually say ‘I don’t remember’ for all that remembers you – with a faith I could really forget them one day!