A Saturday, September 2009:
All new things in the first few years started getting old – to be perfect, I lost the enthusiasm I had in doing things as I get used to the same people around. Life takes turns and the best part is to accept it and turn along with it. I had no other choice either. The best thing I had in my college life so far – Friends. One best thing with a friend is that, the deeper you grow in this relation, the greater you get to know about you!
Earlier, I hate the college without Aaradhana – but now I started hating the college even with her – but definitely not her! I could not stand the fear of losing my love but I wanted to see her happy. The only possible way it could be done is, staying away.
“I know, I cannot forget her!” I said to myself thinking of a plan to distance myself from her.
Brain intruded, “Who said you both were close?”
“I am serious now and don’t want any funny comments like that!” Heart was quite harsh with that reply but stayed upbeat.
“Whatever you say, I am practical and true always!” Brain purported in pride.
“No. You are not. I - I was close - to her... May be – she – she was -s- not...” started strong but later lost emotions with broken words.
“She is not my everything, but I am nothing without her. I don’t know where I am and what I am about to. I never knew this would be much tough when I just started. In fact, I never knew when it started even. No words in English could ever describe me in this case.”
A deep breath and a minute silence were broken again. “You are quite strong in your decisions and no more emotions Bala!” I said to myself and continued thinking of the plan.
“Yeah I found out - a bet!” Brain exclaimed and my whole body was synchronised with it. The best thing about a bet is that I have never lost one against my friends. But the worst thing is, I have never bet with my own self.
“Whatever, from now on, whenever you think of her you lose one rupee and so you should drop it the ‘post-box’ hundi!”
The deal was settled but within just 30 seconds I lost a rupee thinking “how to not think about her!”
So, thought of reframing the total rule for my bet. No one cares what you think about, so we will have like this, “Whenever you see her, you need to pay a buck!”
“Who cares when you just see?? No harm in that too!” heart loved a debate over this.
“Stupid, she does!” direct judgement came without any more to wait for the debate.
Finally with all possible favourable amendments, the deal was ok and bet was on when I just started thinking what all other possible ways to forget her.
“A grade up now! You wanted not to see – now thinking of forgetting. Great!” Brain was so much of a teasing kind with those words. May be one’s brain is the worst enemy if you want to do something emotionally.
The much awaited Monday came. Every bet has a life time, but the bet I have taken now will take my whole lifetime!
Life is Beautiful...
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