I was quite happy even when she was ignoring me and had the complete confidence in me that I could convince her just before it happened. I have never imagined any girl in my life other than her; the same way, I have never even imagined a guy with her. The worst punishment a girl could ever give a guy is not ignoring with any reason but having a guy as a reason. I was not used to that kind of punishments before and I could not easily portray them in words either. Some call it a feel of possessiveness – some even say it was the upper hand of ego – psychologically some call it to be the fear of losing someone.
“She was social of the kind, I know. She talks with everyone except me, I know. She had some really good friends in girls, I know. She had one good guy as her friend, I never knew. Later I came to know, she had many good friends in guys. I should have never known that too.”
Brain started analysing practically, “You just wanted to ignore her, right? Why you bother much now?”
“Yeah. Does that mean I should never care about what she was doing??” heart replied.
“She don’t usually chat in college without a need, she said me when she was about to reject my chat request. She wanted to give a damn to those ‘gossip monkers’ she explained me why she is avoiding talking to me in campus.” added.
I have never heard that ‘gossip monkers’ before she used it and even now don’t know what she meant! Even MS Word shows that to be out of dictionary! Though it was a kind of opposing me, I was really happy reading all that stuff with all hope she would come to me and we both will sit together and read those ignoring stuff and have fun. A deep breath and silence followed.
“Friendship is built with the art of making, but love happens. You can’t make it and I was waiting for that to happen with her. I could have really been her friend as I had the first chance! But I never wanted to use friendship for my cause. Purity of a relationship lies when you have something more than your nothing.”
“Too philosophical… could reduce it though!!” brain responded untimely.
I have never failed in my life, never longed for a thing, never had the feel of losing, was never made fun of, and never feared for anything. But this love made me to understand life is not what I lived for these years and it’s something beyond that. I feared of losing her, I even tried to make up things by convincing me that being friends is never wrong. My dad was a kind of person who brings me everything even before I start thinking about it.
“Stop that. I don’t want to fail. I don’t want to lose. Just break it and come over it” Brain demanded with usual stubborn words.
“I too don’t want to fail - my hopes, I too don’t want to lose – her and Love is not a thing to be broken either!” heart was little slow and strong with words of love.
I just thought of ignoring and avoiding, just for fun and nothing seriously intended. Though it’s weird, it was not that much bad to provide such a bad consequence. I never wanted to leave her at any point of time.
“God do save him…” heart pleaded.
“He won’t come for silly reasons and conflicts!” Brain responded.
“Hmm… That’s right either. But my dad will. I am gonna call my dad and say everything!”
I regained my confidence back and took my mobile phone. Before I could press any button, he just called me. Little puzzled with the call at the unusual time, maybe he would have got something to say at the right time? I just answered.
“Paa…” before I could complete, he started
“Bala… Free??” a little bit of serious tone and I am new to it.
Life is Beautiful
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