Tried all possible techniques and could not even stop gazing at her. The ultimate result – My hundi was full within few weeks! I decided, no way the ‘Hundi’ idea will work and so started thinking of different plans. It was near equal to an addiction to me – no harm, a beautiful addiction. I would have sat all day dreaming about her even if she is on leave. So I started recollecting all those I have heard before about and how to overcome an addiction.
“Addiction kills people – Drinking, smoking!!”
“Addiction proves to be harmful!”
Brain started heaping up those data irrelevant to the current situation. Brain continued, “It starts as a hobby, develops as a practice and finally leaves us to addiction.”
“We cannot completely eradicate the habit suddenly!” inner voice responded not with a perfect reason and proof behind it, but with a feel of love in it.
Accepting the fact, “But can reduce it!” came the reply.
I started thinking over it. Usually there will be a nice war of words if I just start thinking about her and heart dominates most times, this time Brain took its chance. Even I don’t go with Brain’s ideas most times, but I have no cause or reason to be behind her still.
I silently smiled to myself and said, “It was yet another psychological trick! She was avoiding me; in fact she was not even treating me as her classmate. I now want to show how it feels when someone does it to her!”
The next morning, got up early, took my college bus, sat down in my class – Usual. I dint await her arrival, dint notice the colour of her salwar, dint see her eyes and smiled to myself with shyness – Unusual!
Time ticked 11:20 and it was nearly 3 hours without a sight. There was no staff in the class, my usual practice would be to just turn around and see her – just see her and nothing else – couldn’t name what I will be doing actually. Now the tough time started, my friends started forming small groups of their own interests – Movies, sports, politics and most important ‘Guy’ things. I could not resist my inward intention just to see her, so stepped out of my class to find the staff. I was not the representative stuff or any other authority to call a staff member to the class now. But I just wanted to go out and I did.
Our college was one big 12 floor building postured horizontally. So we have longer corridors than higher steps. I started walking in the corridor to reach my department lab. It would be nearly a 150 metres walk. Within 50 metres I was stopped by a yet another “Excuse me” and it was her with her friend, asking me to see the concerned lecturer! I just looked up and turned my head towards the opposite side just as a repulsive force. Am not interested in cracking a senseless joke now, to say we are like poles and so we repelled!
I am not so good in neglecting I guess; actually I was trying to insult her by turning that way. But she wouldn’t even have noticed that and walked away. Once again I dint speak a word and it ended. I was happy that I have done what I wanted to. On the contrary, I was overjoyed that she spoke to me – the love factor! The further consequences of that thought led me to somewhere else I never wanted to!
“I wonder does she know my name or just fixed it in her mind as ‘Excuse me!’”
Heart regaining its lost enthusiasm, “Whatever, she called you!”
“So what, it was just information to be passed and nothing else!” brain replied strongly.
“If it was just information, she would have asked her friend to tell me. She dint do that!”
“It was nothing to be discussed at all. You have reached the lab and so, stop smiling to yourself and do what you are expected to!” ordered the brain.
“I will… I will… She assigned me this!” heart said with utmost happiness.
Brain sighed and said, “You are destined for this even before she said you. It was just a reiteration!”
“Ha ha… Ha ha… Ha ha ha… Whattteverr!!” with full of enthusiasm!
Life is Beautiful
//Our college was one big 12 floor building postured horizontally. So we have longer corridors than higher steps.
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